It can start like a sharp, hot pain in the back of my neck. Sometimes, presents itself as an intense, though brief, all-over nauseating shake. Many times, I won’t even feel the sweat welling up in my palms, only noticing when I leave a handprint on a piece of paper.
One thing is certain, I will always have a physical reaction to the mental hurdles I face, whether I conquer them or not.
Change is a beast that way. Makes me think even less (if possible) about democrats that misrepresent change as a good thing. Change is never a good thing, because change denotes the unknown.
And like a battered child, no matter how bad it actually is, I can get used to it. I can rise above it. I can excel despite it. Just please don’t tell me to change it.
Change is a monster, one I wish you would slay. I obviously can’t. I’m too busy crying to myself in the corner, and sucking my thumb, and yelling out irrationally, and begging for yesterday. However painful, remember yesterday? We survived it.
Doesn’t survival count for anything anymore?
Apparently, no. And I wish I was talking about the election. What I wouldn’t pay to be this invested in the election. No, this hits much closer to home. So much in flux, I’m having trouble finding anything stable enough in my environment to keep in focus, to steady my pace.
And with school starting, and summer ending, I figure every eye that brushes this page is enduring some shade of the same. Which is why I’m passing you this prose-made tissue, to show you I feel your pain and to soak up a little of that transition fluid.
Good luck with yours!
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August 21st, 2008 at 7:28 am
Say what? And here I am with no change in sight (not) and trying not to notice.
August 21st, 2008 at 8:47 am
Heh. Resistance to change is one of the basic human defense mechanisms..the others are scream and yell, run, hide, fight, and if all else fails go belly up and surrender.
But change ain’t all that bad..enough of it and you can get yourself a cup of bad coffee at Mickey Ds
August 21st, 2008 at 11:10 am
I’m dreading the new school year as well.
August 21st, 2008 at 4:05 pm
change is scary and i hate it as well. but lack of change is really bad for my complexion (haHA = : – ), so i need to put up with a little bit of it every now and then.
August 21st, 2008 at 6:30 pm
Make a choice:
-Spock comes to you on the Enterprise, hands you a pad which explains a complicated mission with all the events and situations you might have to face to save the world.
-Kirk shows up in a shuttle, tells you to hop in, “We’re going to save the world!”.
I chose Spock. Not all the time, but I’m not impulsive. I like my routine. I don’t like change, even if my routine isn’t working for me these days. I’ve been single for ages, but having a girlfriend scares the sh1t out of me. Breaks my routine.
Nobody likes change. If you’re impulsive and you like to shoot from the hip, you won’t like to change into a boring routine. Nobody likes change.
August 21st, 2008 at 7:25 pm
something happen with the kids’ school? Ship ‘em here. I’ll teach them. You can come too. I need the help killing off all the dumb hicks in my area.
August 22nd, 2008 at 12:21 am
Mouse: Hey! Who moved my cheese?
August 22nd, 2008 at 6:53 pm
They’re off to school, then off to college, then off for good and they only drop drop by for short visits. Yeah, change sucks (but it doesn’t suck half as bad as people who taunt you with comments about purloined cheese).
August 22nd, 2008 at 10:54 pm
For me, the worst was to arrive at 69, and to know that I couldn’t stay on that step. I would have been happy to be there forever. I didn’t want anything else. Just quiet days on the 69 step. Was it too much to ask? Damn! Damn! Damn! I had to go to 70, 71, 72….and so on. When the fatalistic date comes, I’m literally sick. I don’t want a party. Keep your bloody gifts. Just let me be what I was yesterday. Forever and ever. Amen.
August 24th, 2008 at 9:15 am
I’ve been ankle deep in change for years. And the more things change, as ButtHead said, the more they suck.
I have had no choice but to embrace the change. The other way is death and madness. Play the hand you’re dealt and do it well, and you’ll be fine. You got here OK. You can go anywhere else you like.
Sure, it hurts.
Pain lets you know you’re alive.
August 25th, 2008 at 11:24 pm
I wish I had something witty to say but I don’t. Hang in there kiddo.
August 29th, 2008 at 1:32 am
Got any spare change? I could use some in my present time and place… The same ol’ same ol’ is, well…
…the same ol’ same ol’.
Monotony is definately over-rated…
September 5th, 2008 at 9:48 pm
Supergurl – Nothing about the new super hero from Alaska?